Ok, so it's what I expected but not hoped. I didn't gain/lose anything from my previous weight. So, I am still at a 6.5lb loss. I am going to go strong this week - no cheating and get the pounds gone. It's stupid for me to screw up anymore. I have less than half a bottle left of drops so I need to make sure I make the most of them.
No cravings today.
Here is a recipe I plan on making eventually...
It only looks like "just" a chocolate chip cookie...
Wasn't able to weigh myself this morning since we were at Cody's parents house in Abbeville, SC. I'm pretty glad, too. I wasn't able to eat my normal diet dinner. So, yes, this is three nights in a row that I have cheated. I ended up eating some of my MIL's chili. It was good and I was so happy I ate it. haha... that is until I see the damage done.
Cody took me for a walk yesterday at a park that he was at the other day for work. (He works part time for an arborist) We found a few neat artifacts.
I hope the walk helped offset the chili. I ate my normal lunch today and then did a round of work outs on the wii: biggest loser. My legs and lower back are still aching. I hope it stops soon.
A couple days ago Cody and I promised each other we would use all our tax refund to pay down our debt. We were able to submit our return tonight and were joyful when we realized how much we were getting back.
We will be able to pay off our credit cards and thankfully only have to pay off our cars and student loans. We have been aggressively paying down our debt and this is going to put us far ahead of where we thought we would be. It is such a blessing with everything going on at work.
This is also a great reminder that God always provides.
It's a sad day. I gained .5lb back. So much for my moment of enjoyment. I really need a scale that tells me ounces so I can see exactly what is going on. Anyway, I was stupid yesterday. I skipped lunch, well I only at some cucumber and not my protein, but then for dinner thought it would be ok to eat a lean cuisine pizza - chicken and garlic. Apparently, not. So today, I'm going to do some yoga or go for a long walk. I think I'll also take a detox bath and maybe reverse the damage I did.
I have noticed my body kind of aches. Stretching hurts more than normal. I guess that's why they want you to do yoga. I guess we'll see if it relives the aches today.
My lunch today was grilled chicken w/some italian seasoning, a handful of spinach and a handful of sliced strawberries. It was actually my best meal yet.
Now I have something special for you today.... Around this house we love bacon, as do most americans, so I'm always looking for recipes using bacon - it makes for a happy husband.
Well, I found a fun recipe for chocolate chip and bacon cookies.... um, wow.
Let me know how it tastes if you try it. I do believe this is on my list to make once I get off my diet.
Well you might be as shocked as I am when I say I lost another.5lb. I was so nervous to get on the scale this morning to see the damage I had done. (yes, I got the chicken alfredo) My mouth dropped as I put my glasses on to make sure what the scale said.
And it was delicious. Homemade pasta... Homemade sauce... ah, I could have even done w/out the chicken. I had a little piece of bread and oliveoil and a couple of bites of Cody's amazing Lasagna. All the things I'm not suppose to have. Cody saw me taking more bites and said "are you still hungry or are you just eating?" and yep, I was full but still eating. It was just so good and I like to have a clean plate.
anyway. I am back on the diet today and hoping to continue losing and I guess it's if I go out once every ten days or so but I'm going to try not to. I need to go eat my apple now.
Well, baby Braxton wasn't ready to come out today. Looks like Mary Lee, Josh and Callee will live to be a trio a few more days.
Today, Aaron Gillespie, the former guitarist for Underoath, sang in chapel. He is with his new group, The Almost. They are on their first worship tour. They did a great job considering most of our students didn't know who he was or care. Sometime it gets on my last nerve. I would put them in assigned seats so they can't sit with their friends and make it so that they had to intergrate with the students that do care and maybe it would wear off.
Chicken Alfredo.... mainly b/c I will have the option to buy it tonight, but will hopefully have enough willpower to not... (I think I'm going to fail)
So, I didn't lose anything today... but I didn't gain either so that's awesome. I am back at it today and going to do my best... that is until I have to go to a photo shoot tonight that will be done over dinner at an amazing pasta place in Clemson. Free food that I can't really eat.... or I'm not supposed to... slight panic.
Today, we got an email saying there will be a campus wide 5% decrease until June. Our enrollment just like at most schools around the country, isn't up so we are trying to find ways to make up for that without firing people. All I can say is, I'm happy to have a job.
Well, in other news.... today is the day. Baby Braxton's birthday... we hope. They thought he would have already came this week, but nope. Mary Lee and Josh go into see the doctor today and they will more than likely induce assuming all is good. I wish I could be there. I was working a huge golf tournament at the Cliffs when Callee was born and couldn't leave. I remember getting the phone call and going and crying behind the bar b/c I was so sad I couldn't leave. I'm sure that'll happen again. I just want to be a part of their lives. I love playing with my niece and nephew on Cody's side of the family but it makes me sad I miss all those fun moments with Callee and soon with Braxton. Hopefully one day we'll all be closer or atleast have the money to travel more.
I'm not really craving anything today. I think I'm still so mad at myself for cheating yesterday that I don't want anything. I have my grapefruit ready to eat this morning and I'm about to go make a cup of green tea. Victory.... Victory... Victory... that's what is going to happen today.
Tonight I cheated. Cody left the house and I sat here watching GREEK until I couldn't stand it anymore. I tried to call my Mom and not do it, but I did. Unfortunately, my cheat was wasted on a silly Nutri-grain bar. You'd think that was no big deal, but apparently my stomach doesn't agree. It's feeling really weird right now. Ek! Plus, it's not even close to being allowed on the diet.
I went through the fridge and the pantry trying to figure out what I could eat that would have the least amount of damage. I really wanted to eat chicken alfredo... SUPER BAD. Then I saw a Lean Cuisine Pizza... LOTS OF SODIUM. Then I found some blueberry poptarts.... OMG, do you know how many calories are in ONE tart? And then there it was hiding behind the other boxes.... strawberry whole grain nutri-grain bars.... so I ate it. I wonder if I'll gain tomorrow... scary. I should have blogged before I did it so I could talk about it and forget it.
A professor at the college is also on the diet and he said he would follow the diet as closely as possible but isn't going to make himself miserable over it. I think that's what threw me off.... but then again, following the diet is the miserable part.
I think I'm just stubborn and hate someone telling me what I can and can't eat. oh, meh.
Another .5lbs gone. 6.5lbs in 8 days isn't too shabby. I snuck less than a handful of Lucky Charms last night b/c I was craving sweetness. It's my first official cheat. (I don't count the chickfila incident since I didn't have control over my situation) I found myself sniffing cookies yesterday. Joan, the alumni assistant, gave me half a bag of 100 calorie snacks and told me "it's only 50 calories, you can eat them!" - which I can't so I just sniffed them. Desperate times, people.
We had a great service last night at Spiritual Emphasis. Dwight Robertson of Kingdom Building Ministries was the speaker this year. He did a great job and I just hope the students I've been praying for really heard him. The worship was great and I found myself more open than ever to hear what God was saying. I needed this more than the students I think. Dwight prayed for Cody and I after the service. I really hope we can become Laborers who do God's work wherever we are or whatever we're doing b/c that's what we're called to do.
pepperoni calzone from Pasquale's in Laurel - Thank God I don't live near it anymore or I'd eat it every week
those cookies Joan gave me in my desk drawer
Cody and I are finally getting a hold of our budget. Who knew it would be so hard?! Things were tough at the beginning b/c he is in school and working two jobs and they were both pretty unstable hours so we never really knew what he was going to bring home. We have finally figured out our plan. We pay all the bills out of my paycheck with is stable since I'm salary. Anything left over goes into savings and then we use his money to eat and get gas on. Since we aren't buying things right now, we hope to save a lot and get out of debt.
I paid off one of my student loans this past semester and that was awesome. I still have another 29k one that hurts me every month, but hey, b/c of it, I have a job now. amen.
One person that has helped Cody and I was Joe Sangl. He is a member at our church and does Financial Learning Seminars all over. He is crazy and loud and hates debt. He has a great story about how he and his family got out of debt and is now spreading his passion all over. You can go to his site and get all his FREE tools to help. We use his excel budgets each month. I even gave my mom one of the websites he recommends to get lower car insurance and guess what, she did! PTL.
I hope to be financial stable with no debt when we have a baby. With God anything is possible and that is the truth I'm holding onto. In the words of Dave Ramsey "live like no one else now, so you can live like no one else later"
Anyhow, why am I writing about this... b/c I am just happy that God is working in our marriage through money. We want to be debt free and able to say "Yes, I'll go" if and when God calls us to do something crazy with our lives.
Thank God for London Broil. I lost 1.5lbs. Yah! I was so scared the beef was going to jack me up since you can only eat it 2-3 times a week. I am down 6lbs.
We weighed in today at work for our Biggest SWUzer competition. This weight is different b/c it's with our clothes on so you never really know but it's usually a pound or so off but I lost 7.2 since last week on that scale. I really hope I win overall and get a prize! :)
I'm eating celebratory apple right now.
Cravings so far today:
Milkyway (but I'm only craving it if it's been in the freezer for a little bit)
Subway - I don't even like subway
MOES! WELCOME TO MOES! oh, I miss them yelling that at me. I love Moes so much that the owner gave me a permanant 25% off! True Story.
I have always loved donuts. I even worked at a donut shop for almost 3 years during college. I ended up hating Daylight Donuts so I would sneak over to Shipley's donuts and get them from there. They were so much better, anyway. Daylight donuts did have the Kolaches which I loved and they had banana smoothies so I was still a fan. I got to make all the donuts and it was super fun. It was a great job and I had nice bosses (Carl Wayne and Nora Stevens - Matt's parents) Britney Spears spent the night at their house once when she was a kid. ha.
My dog Charles Wayne (charlie) is named after Mr. Carl (wayne).
ok, so why am I blogging about donuts???? Because I went to the grocery store tonight to pick up some london broil for dinner and walked past the bakery and almost fainted. The smell of donuts was the most beautiful aroma ever at that moment. haha. Jeez, I am fat person through and through. I didn't buy one though so I win! Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. woop!
But isn't this beautiful?
I had beef for the first time tonight in a week. It was so much better than chicken or shrimp. whew.
Lost another .5lb. - That puts me at a total of 4.5lbs. in 6 days. I'm now to the point as long as I'm going down on the scale I don't care if it's .5 or 2lbs.
So, I'm on my lunch break and having minor hunger pains and with no surprise do not want to eat chicken or shrimp. I'm so tired of chicken and shrimp... just typing the words make me want to gag. I'm sure if I could dose the chicken in alfredo sauce my gagging would stop and turn into sweet yummy bliss, but I can't so I will contintue gagging.
I didn't really cheat at lunch I just didn't eat what I was suppose to. I had an apple for a snack around 10 then for lunch because of my hatred for chicken and shrimp I made a protein shake with just water and the hcg protein powder and am trying to eat a celery stick. blah. (makes me miss peanut butter so bad!)
I'm going to pick up some brisket today so I can start eating beef again. I didn't think I would need it but obviously man cannot live on chicken alone. Praise God for cows. amen.
Lost .5lbs. but that is totally fine b/c I had to cheat yesterday. My day was filled with Cheerleading. We have Nationals in 6 weeks so we had an all day clinic at Palmetto Cheer and Tumble to learn and practice our routine. For lunch, I took the squad to Chick-fil-a and struggled trying to figure out what to do and ended up eating a chicken sandwich. It was rough. ha. I wish I had planned out my day better but I still lost a little so it's ok.
yep, Damion always makes a statement.
more cupcake, please.
As for the pizza... in 2 months, I'll be sitting in Gino's East eating deep dish Chicago pizza with my mom, sister and my hubby... I'm so excited!
No weight loss today. I think I messed up on my drops. I'm back at it today and hoping to see some results tomorrow. I took a detox bath last night w/epson salt and baking soda. I've witness the results of a detox before and your skin will get a little scaley. It happens when you get a colonic, too. (another story, another time)
Red Velvet Cake
Sweets in general... buh.
Yeast rolls and just bread
I'm down two pounds today! Let's celebrate the small victories, people!
I am back to drinking my daily doses of green tea, which I strangely love. I have a 3 liter bottle of water that I have to drink daily which means I go to the ladies room a lot. Melba toast sucks, but is a nice distraction from sweets.
Things I am craving:
Sonic Bacon Cheeseburger (which I haven't had in months... maybe even a year)
Pancho's cheese steak burrito and chips w/salsa...
oh, avcados and mangos
One of the orange creme popsicles that are in my fridge right now as I type this...
ah, the temptation.
I'm learning how habitual my eating has become. I crave food even when I'm not hungry.
I did go to bed with a headache last night. I was shocked after I downed all that water. I'm defintely not dehydrated. Must have been all the tv I watched... (yes, I did watch 4 episodes of Greek yesterday)
*here is a recipe for Avocado and Mango Ice Cream
flesh of 1 Ataulfo mango
flesh of 2 ripe avocados
juice of 1 lime
1 cup to 1 1/2 cup of whole milk
3 Tbsp honey
Blend everything together in a blender until smooth. Refrigerate over night. When ready, churn in your ice cream maker as according to the manufacturer's instruction.
We visited our friends, Michael and Tanya, on Monday and got to see their puppy, Bauer (named after Jack Bauer). We can't have a puppy b/c we live in apartments owned by SWU. We have wanted a dog for a long time but have never been able to have one. I have bad allergies so we have to be careful getting on anyway, but I really want a fat bulldog like Meaty on Rob and Big or a bassett hound.
I saw this last night and kinda makes me want a husky...
I've been watching an insane amount of the tv show GREEK that comes on ABC Family. We have netflix and I've watched almost every season. It has made miss college so much. We didn't have greek systems at my small baptist college, but the relationships were all there. It makes me miss living with my best girlfriends... having new friends right around the corner every day in class.... sleeping at lunch... sleeping at dinner... late night steak and shake dates... skipping class... laying in the grass... being able to be irresponsible b/c you could... ah, now I'm an adult that works on a college campus and it's kind of torture. ha.
I officially started the HCG diet yesterday. If you haven't heard of it, google it. It's crazy but I've seen it work drastically so I'm trying it for myself.
Today is my 2nd loading day. I have to eat a lot of fat. I'm kind of failing on this b/c I don't really eat a lot of fried foods. I am going to go home and make bacon for lunch. I guess the thought of having to force feed myself fat is grossing me out. I am taking 6 drops 6x a times day. I also have to drink half my weight in water.
Tomorrow is the start of Phase 2. The tough part start. I will eat only 500 calories along with taking the drops and drowning myself in water. I told you it was crazy.
If I can make it for 30 days, I should lose around 30lbs. I'll keep you posted.
Last night it starting snowing and we woke up in a winter wonderland. There hasn't been this much snow in South Carolina since 1988 I heard. I've seen it about 6 -8 inches. I got to go sledding for the first time ever at the soccer fields on campus. It was fantastic. Here are some photos of the past 24 hours...