Sunday, July 31, 2011

tragedy

My mom called me yesterday afternoon to let me know that my step-brother's daughter, Bailey had been hit in the head and has suffered a brain injury. She just turned one. 


She was airlifted to the state hospital and has since been diagnosed brain dead. They are taking her off life support today and will be donating her organs. Investigations are underway due to conflicting stories from the babysitters. Not sure what all is going on there but I just hope the truth comes out and it gives the parents closure and lets them begin to grieve. It's a horrible horrible thing that has happened to such a young child. It breaks my heart for her mother who is still young herself. Please keep Adam and Hope in your prayers. 

Friday, July 29, 2011

Guest Blogger: Love Notes from the Fickle Monster, Part 18

She looked up at me with these big blue eyes and said, "I want you to be my mom."

I replied, "I am not emotionally prepared to mother a child."

Eyebrows furrowing, she said, "What? You don't have any kids?"

"No."

Eyebrows raised in surprise, "Wow. Do you have a husband?"

"No."

Eyebrows fixed, perplexed, "Fiance?"

"How do you know what that is?"

"Boyfriend?"

"Not really."

Eyebrows narrowed, focused, "How old are you?"

"25."

Eyebrows....just eyebrows, "You should have kids by now."

Hold up kid, you're cutting deep...and you are seven.
I thought about crying out, "Yes, I am a twenty five year old who is not endeavoring to start a family, is just beginning graduate school, is still living at home, and is (for only two more days) working a truly special summer job. Yes, I am happy. Eat your popsicle; you're making me feel like crap!" She is the same girl who told me her ideal boyfriend had blue hair, a bowl cut, and a pet wolf.

We all have our dreams, our expectations, our wishes, our ideas.

When I was seven, my teacher asked what I wanted to be when I grew up...a chef, of course. A chef? I supposed the answer was appropriate considering my passion for food...eating food. Throughout life, I defined and redefined my answer to the question. We love asking eachother about such things. However, to me, that question reduces, even negates the potential of now, the very moment. We get busy encouraging (pressuring) one another toward something else, something different, and we easily forget we are presently alive which is a pretty ok thing to be.

Seeking contentment in our projected futures is often easier than finding it today, now, this very moment.

Just a few days ago, someone asked me where I thought I would be in one year. My response was stupid, quick, thoughtless: "Right here" which was followed by "picking strawberries in Puerto Rico (the location could have been a different tropical place, I can't remember)," and I finished big with "on a cross country bike tour." My answer was hasty and uninspired because, honestly, I do not know. I am planning on starting a graduate program, maintaining friendships, reading more books, meeting new people, losing more weight, and continuing my work at Green Run. I can plan, but I cannot know.

I cannot begin to dream up an idea of what life will look like 365 days from now. I can speak for today and the  9,201 days which are held together, supernaturally, through the spiritual bonds of life, experience, and influence. When I consider the possibilities of next year, I believe I should approach any thought with a holy reverence and humble gratitude for the very spot I am standing in now.

Our plans, our dreams, our ideas are sometimes impressive, usually required, and often poor attempts at containing the expansive nature of the unknown future that, at best, is unreliable and shapeless and overwhelming and indefinite.

This is what I know to be true: God is soverign. Based on the surprises, impulses, experiences, and changes over this past year, I know my next year of life is purposefully ordained for me to explore, to learn, and to share. I am still considering reduction and holiness and purpose. And perhaps my realized future will not align with others expectations, and it may not align with my own, but I'm not so scared of that anymore.

There is plenty of room for setting goals and dreaming and wishing, but the weight of life is resounding in the current of a living moment.   

Listen.
Live.
Now.
I dare us.

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Cora Ruth Flottman is the best friend, college room8 and a complete inspiration to Sheila.
She is an actress, teacher, Christian, lover of the written word, and men who can change the tires on a car.
She blogs here every Friday (when inspired).

This week, she reread The Giver, and loved this line,
"The worst part of holding memories is not the pain. It's the loneliness of it.
Memories need to be shared" (Lowry 154).

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

ready for a long weekend... week... month.









obviously I want to be near the water. 

Friday, July 22, 2011

In This House...


truth. 

Work has been super crazy and somewhat stressful so I am so thankful it's finally after 4:30 on Friday. I am finally home sitting on the couch watching Anthony Bourdain on the tv (love him) while Cody takes a nap on the other couch. It's perfect. 

le sigh. 

Have a great weekend! I hope to have lots of new updates next week. Stay tuned! 

Thursday, July 21, 2011

new friends. new juicer.

I realized that when I write about how I meet people it comes off really creepy sounding. I always have way more back story to a situation than even the people in the story know about. I really am a creep like Veronica Mars. That TV show ruined me. I seriously stalk people out and know everything before I meet them.

And I'm not even going to go into why that's on my mind today...

But I will tell you about my night. We hung out with our new friends Tyler and Allison. Cody works with Tyler and luckily for me he has a really great wife for me to talk to. We ate at Olive Garden last night, kind of as a last meal out for while because we are cutting back to pay for our upcoming vacation to Jamaica.

I think it's completely worth it... 


Anyway... We had a really know-it-all type server but overall it was a lot of fun. We normally end up sitting and just chatting. Since we don't have any other connection to each other besides Cody and Tyler working together you never know where the conversation will go so it's a lot of fun.

In other news...

We got a juicer - Hamilton Beach Big Mouth Extractor... sounds scary, right?


So after dinner we headed to Publix and loaded up on goodies. The cashier accidently overcharged me for 11 grapefruits instead of just one. I'm so glad I checked my receipt. A good habit to do.

Juice - Wednesday night
5 carrots 
3 oranges
= yum

Juice Thursday morning
3 apples
3 carrots
1 handful of spinach
1/2 grapefruit
= pretty awesome
The grapefruit had a powerful punch so I might not use a half next time.

Detox phase has begun. I understand what they mean when they say you get into a fog. My head feels super woozy and that's only from two glasses.

Anyway, I have to go to work! Have a great day!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

sleepless in central

The past few nights I have had the worst nights sleep. I don't know what it is. I can't seem to fall asleep until after midnight. I've tried getting into bed earlier and laying there but I'm still tossing and turning all night. I've been really ugh during the day and really cranky. Obviously my first thought is rearranging my room... it's what Vern would do, right? 

these are a few of my dream bedrooms...
I love this cabin-ish feel

um, who wouldn't want a bed made out of a tree... literally 

soft blues would smooth me

again, i love the blues and whites

i'd take this headboard but change out the colors

my favorite! Quilt. Wallpaper. Origami. 

lovely. 

simple. great. 

love this one, too. It would be great for a teenager. 

Sunday, July 17, 2011

lucky

Can I just say how much I love being married to Cody??!? Seriously, I have a great husband, best friend, lover. There isn't a day that goes by that I grow to love him more. He always makes me laugh and takes such good care of me. He supports my dreams and doesn't freak out when I change my plans. I know I tell him all the time but I just wanted to brag on him a little bit to all of you that read this blog (april, cora, lauren, michelle & jen... my few faithful readers)

He is as perfect today as he was the day we met. I am beyond blessed to be his wife.

can't imagine my life with anyone else :)

under the carolina sunshine...

i love being in the country... 




it felt like heaven was so close. 

and then there was skeet (clay pigeon) shooting... and I shot one! Took only 6 tries! Pretty sure I have a bruise on my shoulder. I'm such a wuss, but I can shoot a gun! 

It was a great day with my in-laws, niece and nephew... very relaxing. Now, back to work. 


Saturday, July 16, 2011

Island in the Sun...

Sorry I've been so MIA lately,  work and life have been so crazy.

Let's catch up.

Hilton Head with the yearbook babies...
Cody. Amanda. John. Angela

Greco babies

Next, photoshoot with Tina...
She made the polka dot dress she is wearing. 

The suitcase she is sitting on is Cody's actual suitcase that he likes to use. It's vintage and awesome. 

She looks so great in these photos!

Next trip... Mississippi for the Fourth of July

hanging with my bff, Amy

Katy & Cody hot and sweating while we were shooting fireworks!

My sweet cousin, Jax

the beautiful Mississippi sky.... we were waiting for the firework show to begin at the Sawmill Square Mall.


Then we had a photoshoot for Katy! 
She is my cousin and is amazing! lovvvvve her. 

look at those beautiful eyes! 


Next we had a photo for Jon & Ashley when we were back in South Carolina

Jon is a Wesleyan Youth minister

They are great! 



So that's the past few weeks.... obviously lots more in depth but not in the mood to go into deep things right now but I'll tell you that there could be some big news soon. We'll see what God has in store. 

But one thing that I do know will be happening in December will be Cody and I spending some sweet quality time in Negril, Jamaica. 
wooo hooo! 




Monday, July 11, 2011

a few simple truths for the day...






and my favorite of the day...

don't you wish you could have told yourself that when you were younger!?!?

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