past and present

Dawn inspired this post... 

Past

- I was fearless

- I moved about 20 times  (which really translates to 13 times before I moved to South Carolina)

- I was a hard core roller skater. I spent every Friday night, Saturday and Sunday afternoon at Sunshine Skate Center in Laurel, MS. I was good. It's a silly thing to be proud of, but I was/am. They would use me as an example when teaching kids how to race. 

- I worked at a donut shop for 3 years. 

- I played basketball, softball and was on a dance team. I even took karate for a little while. 

- I never turned down a dare. 

- I made all decisions with no hesitation. 

- I didn't care what people thought, I was just me and always said what I thought. 

- I would sing karaoke. 

- Would wear whatever I wanted. 

- I knew who I was in Christ

Present

- I am scared to death of everything. 

- I hate confrontation. I try to keep my opinion to myself. 

- I am not athletic at all anymore. I am scared of getting hurt. 

- I am terrified of karaoke. 

- I make decisions based on other people instead of being so selfish. 

- I still move about the same amount. 

- I dress to be comfy... mainly boring clothes to work.... I sneak something fun in there every now and then though.

- Somehow in my adulthood I am back to figuring out who I am in Christ. 

So this seems slightly negative since now I'm such a less assured person. A few things have happened in the past year that have made me doubt myself professional, physically and spiritually. So for Lent, I have decided to focus on those  things and bring "myself" back; to give up these feelings of negativity. I know I am becoming a better person and not being so selfish. Being married and caring for someone more than yourself can do that. So, not all of it is bad, but I really look forward to seeing what God does when I give over these situations and feelings. 

Has anyone else gone through that after finishing college? Growing up sucks, doesn't it!?! 

I hope you all had a great hump day.